Admittedly, I went into this orientation with a decidedly less than positive attitude. I am a bit embarrassed my mental state. I was closed, tired, unresponsive, and inactive. I have gone back and forth: was it the environment? I felt isolated at first. Was it my preconceived expectations? Was it the scenery? We visited gems of hidden loveliness- places tucked away from public view. It was not the scenery, so in pursuit of inward change and growth, I will blame myself!
Yet I am glad for when I did reach out. The mentors were supportive of my emotional and mental state, and for that I am entirely thankful, particularly for Mao and Juancarlos, who both called me out on what was going through my head throughout the week. With all things said and done, this was a learning experience, and an opportunity for the most difficult type of personal growth, the kind that comes with acknowledging one's own shortcomings. I will regret no more, because from here I will connect with my peers, from here I can do my work. I will give myself the chance to open my ears to new stories.
So what am I thinking now? It is raining here in Boston: grey, cloudy drops slip and slide down the slanted windows, and I am thinking of the weather as I wait for my flight. I am also considering what's to come- the burning sun and its guiding direction. This summer, I will be basking in the Virginia heat, not only will I revel in the rays of the sun I will soak in the beams of my own potential. I am nervous with excitement, and I am turning into myself once more.
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